can't believe i'm in third year! (Year 3 Week 2)

aahh.. i am already in my final year of PhD! I simply can't believe how quickly time is going!
well, i'm not being paranoid here, but at least i can confirm that from today onwards, you might going to see some of my future entries will be emotionally written, depressing, lack of self-worth and full of misery due to the fact that i am almost approaching the end of my PhD studies.. hoho.. hopefully not much of them!


Ramadhan is here, and having 17 hours fasting during the day (it was 19 hrs on the first day then it was reduced to 18 and it will be lesser than that as far as the day goes by, the sun begins to fade earlier and rises later) has so far did not stop me to pursue my everyday student routines.. Alhamdulillah..i still go to my lab to do my pairing experiment (another labwork and i'm done!, insyaAllah) and if i decide to stay at home, i will do some scribblings, reading or writing for my thesis draft.But  somehow, due to the thirst and hunger that started to crumble from afternoon onwards, I have decided to take some nap on the afternoon to ensure that i can start afresh afterwards and keep myself in one piece until Maghrib :)  


Lately, i was a bit distracted by some people around me, who are in the same position as mine-  a phd scholar, but have left their studyplace and went back to Malaysia without completing their doctorate. i know all of them have come to a position where their study leave (that includes extension) has come to an end, and whether they like it or not, they have to go back and starts their duty as an academic officer in their own workplace without phd scroll in hands. it makes me scared at some point. I don't want to end up like them. i want to have my thesis done over here then head straight to viva and after that go back home as a proud person. This situation has made me thinking of the way i'm currently handling my research. I can't deny myself that at some point, i can be easily attracted to do other things (non-academic staff, of-course) without realising there are still lots of works to complete and deadlines to catch and in the end i ended up forcing myself to the max to complete the task and the results weren't up to the expectations, which were a total shame. After doing some me-reflections lately , i can assure you that i am now fully aware of my priority and i will try to keep away any 'godaan' that comes while i'm working on my thesis.. insyaAllah.. i have recently made my 'Ramadhan Study Schedules' to be followed throughout this holy month as my productive times in a day are randomly spread over due to fasting activity. this is my first attempt to work on serious schedule (bila dah masuk final year semua dah jadi serius..haha) and i don't know whether it could work wonders for me, but let see how it goes later, ok?


"semoga Ramadhan kali ini memberi keberkatan dari segi ibadah dan juga memberi kekuatan kepada diri ini untuk belajar bersungguh-sungguh..Amin"